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Photographer: Michael Mannion. Actor: Steph Reynolds. Director: Ali Pidsley.

What About England?

Annie Jenkins

I was recently asked to take part in the first edition of new writing night – Slingshot - in Manchester. Four directors were given twenty-four hours with four actors to rehearse the pieces before they were performed on 30 September 2016 at Salford’s Islington Mill. The following is a statement of the premise by the organiser Piers Black-Hawkins:

“As a collective we got quite frustrated with going to see vaguely political theatre that told everyone what to think and then slapped them on the back for having the same opinions, so we wanted to create the antithesis of that kind of evening. Slingshot is a rapid response night that gives four writers a state of the nation provocation each, and then twenty-four hours to write a monologue as convincingly as possibly that argues the opposite of what they believe. It's essentially an old debating technique that requires people to see the best in both sides of an argument in order to prepare for the counter-argument. As this is drama we're really looking for a human story, not a political essay. Personal, not global.”

My monologue depicts Danielle, a twenty-five year old, who very much disagrees with my provocation, ‘we should protect the vulnerable’, specifically in relation to the Calais refugees. Her belligerence is uncomfortable and offensive, her language extreme and violent. Despite this, I think it is important to consider that many reactionary attitudes such as Danielle’s are born of feeling forgotten or isolated. Sneering left-wing snobbery is not only unhelpful, but can be just as divisive, short sighted and harrowing to endure. As it all kicked off on Facebook in the aftermath of Brexit, I witnessed some really nasty and aggressive language from some of those who voted to remain (seemingly 100% of my Facebook bubble.) Left-wing attitudes are sometimes prone to limited spheres of focus – as exemplified by Danielle’s perception of her sister in the play, or the abusive ‘remainers’ on my own Facebook feed. If we continue to direct anger towards those we fail to instinctively empathise with, we will remain divided. Here Danielle is herself a vulnerable individual and ought to be recognised as such.


Hate that fucking school.

I didn’t wanna go

I didn’t wanna go down there did I?

When has any good ever come of me trotting my toes over the threshold of that hellhole?


that’s when.

‘It’s parents evening, it’s parents evening

I need someone to represent me on parents evening, I’m getting my projected grades.’


Who is

represented’ on parents evening?

I tell you ever since Mia was entered for the higher tier of English Literature

(and language) GCSE

she talks like a fucking twat.

She wants to get an A*.

I told her to calm her shit and flush that nastiness out the litter tray or Carol Ann Duffy can do one.

That’s the name of the cat, it’s fucking weird.

I’ve got enough on my hands without a diarrhea-ridden cat repainting the skirting boards with her shitty tail. I’d drown her if I had the time. Or post her live to the Brixton cat killer and he could just get on with it.

I maintain that foundation level kept me grounded.

I’m still talking about English GCSE here, keep up alright. Yeah, I got a D


is a pass, thank you

and, also

since June 2007 when have I ever needed to discuss the use of assonance in poems from other cultures?

In ‘Presents from My Aunt in Pakistan’ (which was shit) or

‘Half Caste’ which was only half in English?

I thought the

subject was English Language but what does that even mean anymore?

No one here speaks English,

or even tries to learn. I’m a fucking ethnic minority at home.

See I’m not an idiot alright, I know what

assonance is yeah.

Does that surprise you?

Yeah I like surprising people.


when you get the rhyme wrong.

Educating Rita’s my favourite film, I love that shit.

Makes me feel safe.

So Mum can’t really move anymore,

I made her fish fingers the other day.

Being thoughtful wasn’t I, she’s

hardly eaten anything for days and she loves fish fingers

we even had them on her birthday once

but she didn’t even really look at them or



still there now.

I don’t really

like going in there

it smells like someone’s



is about to

which I spose is right but


I don’t like it.


not nice.

She does things like

ask to hold my hand


I say I need the toilet because


I dunno.

Shit. I always do this, get distracted

it’s like

there’s all these bullet points




connections in my head and my brain’s like


so yeah, it takes me a while to get to the point. I’ve got a fucking point alright,

stop looking at your watch or I’ll throw acid in your eyes.

That was a joke, where would I get Acid in Manchester?

It’s like a fucking foreign country here, no one can pronounce anything right, even the white people.

Anyway, that ugly cunt in hi-tech trainers, Miss Clopsham

- I know like actually what sort of name is that -

said to Mum at parents evening once

‘Danielle causes frequent low-level disruption, she pays no attention. She is both very distracted and very distracting.’

She was obviously

very pleased with that because she repeated it in my report.

Repetition for effect you see.

I mean I know I talk a lot but I took offence to that.

I paid plenty of fucking attention when we did anything good


worth paying attention to but you get bored don’t you?

You get bored if every minute the teacher’s translating every fucking sentence into baby speak for half the class that don’t understand what the fuck she’s saying.

If she needs to explain how to copy the date to their book from the board

I mean

that’s pretty fucking boring yeah.

And what’s the point anyway? It wasn’t like they were trying to learn,

they’d just


like, gormless fucking vegetables.

Ten or so Mr Potato Heads in school uniform yeah.


this isn’t about my parents evening ten years ago

it’s about Mia’s

four hours ago.

So, right.

Mum can’t move

- rotting in bed with her fish fingers -

so I had to go and ‘represent’ Mia.

Clopsham’s still there,

fucking course she is,

still not dead,

fucking I wish

and our English appointment is at twenty past four yeah

and I’ve fucking rushed here from the hospital

got a bloody


cost nearly thirty quid because of the fucking traffic and two stops

fucking deposited our Mother into her bed of cat hair and decay

and I’m here on time.

First appointment, cunty Clopsham, twenty past four. I’m ready.

There’s someone already at the table and another couple of parents loitering behind.

Sorry, my appointment’s at twenty past four and I’ve almost killed myself and our cancer riddled mother

- I basically threw her up the stairs -

in the process to get here on time.

It’s four twenty six.


‘What time’s your appointment?’ I say to the bloke in front of me.

He just stares.

‘Your appointment, what time is it?’


I take the bit of paper with all our appointment times listed on it from Mia and wave it in front of him.

She’s embarrassed,

‘Danielle, stop it,’ like out of the side of her mouth.

Fuck off Mia I don’t wanna be here for a moment longer than completely necessary, I’m not your fucking parent yet here I am

doing everything

as usual.

Our appointment is at four twenty and now it’s half past.

Told you, fucking gormless. I try the other woman standing a bit to the side but definitely waiting to be seen.

She just stares too. Dead behind the eyes.

Where are their fucking kids anyway?

I can see Clopsham looking up at me from the little table

she recognises me

she thinks I’m stupid I fucking hate her.

She shakes the people’s hands in front of her and they get up,

the fucking mute in front of me goes to sit down.

No I’m sorry, my appointment was fifteen minutes ago and we’ve got another twelve to get through after

since when was it necessary to do thirteen GCSEs?

You need three, if that.

They’re shaking hands.

‘No, excuse me, what time was your appointment?’ I say to him again,

I’m being really fucking polite,

he looks round then looks back.

Sorry, what?

I tap him on the shouder,

‘I’m sorry but my appointment was fifteen minutes ago, what time was yours? What time was his appointment?’ I say to cunt face.

‘These things always run a bit over, it’s Danielle isn’t it?’

Fuck off she knows I’m Danielle, she taught me for five years, she knows I’m Mia’s sister.

‘Yeah but what time was his appointment because if it was at four thirty for example’

- it’s now four forty four -

‘then I’m entitled to go first.’

‘Danielle shut up, it doesn’t matter,’ Mia’s trying to drag my arm









I grab his sheet.

Four fucking fifty. His appointment isn’t for six minutes.

‘I think you need to leave’

that’s all I hear, she said other things, something about ‘tolerate’ and ‘language’ -

if people could fucking use language we wouldn’t have this problem.

I’m being escorted outside by someone I don’t recognise in a power suit with a walkie talkie

Mia’s crying

this person can’t touch me anymore,

she needs to move from me, I’m gonna be sick

I push her


she falls and I run

I can hear Mia shouting my name

I run and run

I get on the tube.

I’m sick on the platform, ‘Oi what you looking at? Fuck off.’

I go to Euston.

I get on the first train I see.

Platform 14. Manchester Piccadilly.

I lock myself in the toilet. People just presume it’s out of order.

And now I’m here and my phone is off

and Mum’s at home and I don’t know where Mia is.

I don’t care. Probably still at parents evening, discussing her projected grades.

But you can’t do that can you? Push in the fucking queue.

Mia went on a march the other day. Of course she did.

‘Refugees welcome here.’


We need to look after these people yeah,

we need to look after them because they’re being bombed

because children are dying

babies are drowning

families are being torn apart.

What about my family? My ‘family?’

Yeah I know it’s happening, I know it’s sad

I’m not a monster

I don’t hate people, I don’t want them to die

I don’t like, want them to die

but I’m sorry, they need to stay put.

If everyone in this country

if everyone in England is using all their energy

and our money

and our resources

on these


from abroad,


terrorists (throwing fucking missiles at lorry drivers yeah?)


what about us? People like you and me.

What about England?

Mia marched for Syria whilst I accidentally burnt my mum in the bath and I didn’t even realise because she didn’t have the strength,

she was too tired to tell me I was giving her fucking blisters.

I drag her back in to find Carol Ann Duffy has shat on her pillow


cat diarrhea streaming down her special pillow like tie dye.

I think it’s really fucking hard to be English right now.

So no

I’m sorry

I don’t care if some strangers from another country die.

Fucking cry me a river.

I’m not gonna waste my life trying to sort out theirs. I’m not gonna give up what my passport entitles me to.

Why is this our responsibility?

Terrorists are pissing all over us and we’re asking them where they wanna aim.

We’re offering them bog roll. Fan yourself with our fucking benefit system why don’t you yeah?

It’s the NHS not the GHS, fucking

global health service.

My mum’s gonna die. Very soon.

Maybe I’ll die too.

Everyone fucking dies.

Maybe Mother Nature’s doing those drowning babies a favour.

Mia doesn’t care,

all she cares about is feeding bananas to those naked baby Mowgli’s in the ‘jungle’



and getting an A* in English GCSE.

Shut in her fucking room all the time.

She’s a prick


is a prick.


I don’t know what you’re looking at pal.

Fuck off.